random thought time .

i feel really sore right now , i'm sure its a sign to stop drinking and smokng and stuff , my chest is pretty sore and if i breathe in heaps it goes real tight and burns a little .. hmm crazyness ..
this is just a random thought blog its not made in order so things are being written as i think them ..
im rocking the red lipstick at the moment , luvin it and i think it goes with the dress i'm wearing , yeya they said it looked good last nite at chloes .. wow had such a random night , went to chloes 18th with jade then got sai , ethan and jay to pick us up , got a feed wasted as and dropped jade off , picked rome and his new adopted brother thing and went to the bay kept drinking .. can't believe i woke up this morning , i've been getting so trollied lately i actually think i'm turning into an alcoholic .. every weekend i tell myself i'm not going to drink but always end up going out .. can't believe i'm 18 soon , crazy shit ! everyone wants me to have a party but to be honest i dont really want to cuz chris might find out , and to be honest again i think i still care about him a tad .. its sickening me a little , he always stalks me and trys to get into my life i think this is why i feel the way i feel .. i guess it is ..
what else is new .. umm everyones had sex now except tree hahah jordans pretty happy with himself lmao but its kewel that hes got someone now , and buzzy her names aysha ! hahahaha
eugh i have the mean stomach cramps .. and my heads pretty blocked and clogged up , soo hung .. i need to catch up on my sleep tomorrow , i've still been going course even tho i went to whangarei on wednesday , went clubbing again , just walked in hahah love it ! but i need to stop clubbing , stop drinking , stop smoking , start afresh . live my life for Him instead of living a world of sin .. man this is getting deep i better go , i've gotta go out soon and i dont even know if i can do it .. went to the mall the other day completely trashed i can't believe it .. i need to stop !!! :(