random thought time .

i feel really sore right now , i'm sure its a sign to stop drinking and smokng and stuff , my chest is pretty sore and if i breathe in heaps it goes real tight and burns a little .. hmm crazyness ..
this is just a random thought blog its not made in order so things are being written as i think them ..
im rocking the red lipstick at the moment , luvin it and i think it goes with the dress i'm wearing , yeya they said it looked good last nite at chloes .. wow had such a random night , went to chloes 18th with jade then got sai , ethan and jay to pick us up , got a feed wasted as and dropped jade off , picked rome and his new adopted brother thing and went to the bay kept drinking .. can't believe i woke up this morning , i've been getting so trollied lately i actually think i'm turning into an alcoholic .. every weekend i tell myself i'm not going to drink but always end up going out .. can't believe i'm 18 soon , crazy shit ! everyone wants me to have a party but to be honest i dont really want to cuz chris might find out , and to be honest again i think i still care about him a tad .. its sickening me a little , he always stalks me and trys to get into my life i think this is why i feel the way i feel .. i guess it is ..
what else is new .. umm everyones had sex now except tree hahah jordans pretty happy with himself lmao but its kewel that hes got someone now , and buzzy her names aysha ! hahahaha
eugh i have the mean stomach cramps .. and my heads pretty blocked and clogged up , soo hung .. i need to catch up on my sleep tomorrow , i've still been going course even tho i went to whangarei on wednesday , went clubbing again , just walked in hahah love it ! but i need to stop clubbing , stop drinking , stop smoking , start afresh . live my life for Him instead of living a world of sin .. man this is getting deep i better go , i've gotta go out soon and i dont even know if i can do it .. went to the mall the other day completely trashed i can't believe it .. i need to stop !!! :(

weoow !

haven't blogged in awhile , but yeah as you probably guessed me and chris aren't together anymore , but i'm feeling really good about it (:
but enough about that . there are more important things to talk about !
last night was an amazing night , i ended up going clubbing with sabrina , lisa , jade , anna and reas .. so crazy ! and they're all amazingly stunning (except reas kuz hes a dude lmfao ) which comes in handy when yew try to get in everywhere underage hahaha !
first we had pre drinks at annas house in takapuna , her house is amazing ! so so jealous :P
we went to bar 3 first , i got in easy .. got bored of it then went to lounge and saw elias there ( argh shame ! ) he asked me how chris was .. i was like ask him yurself ! an he was like are yew guys not together anymore ? and i was like nopeee ! hahha but he gave me a cigy which was nice , and another girl from course was there and asked me about chris .. i'm so over it ! we've been over for ages man fark !!
an krystal was in lounge too , hahah random ! course central !
then we stayed there till it closed , then went to met , we managed to get in for free even tho it was 5 bux a head (: an then we went to code , i love it there way more ! but jade couldn't get in cause they were trying to get her to pay :( so we called it a night and had to walk up to sky city to get the car ahha my feet are so sore now :( i shouldnt have worn heels going uphill haha !
anyways got home at 5am , watched tv an fell asleep .. woke up at like 11.30 so i'm prety tired :(
and when i woke up i smelt hardout like man cologne .. sick stuff , i can't even remember alot :s too wasted !
xx